my brain is buzzing.

so this weekend was our adoption seminar. i have not mentioned in any of my posts that we are infertile. officially. as in doctors said it was futile to try getting preggers the normal way. so this sucks to the 9th degree but we are coming to terms with it (after many hours of bawling my eyes out and yelling at God). This is the hardest thing of my entire life!!!! all i have ever wanted was to be a mommy and i can't. it won't work no matter what we do. we could try IVF, but the last time i checked we didn't have an extra 10,000 dollars sitting around in our account. and anyways, i don't really like needles enough that i would be willing to get poked everyday for a month or so straight only to have a failed attempt. forget it. so we have opted to apply to adopt. now begins masses of paperwork and stuff to do. we are really examining our future and looking at what we really want as a family. where do we see ourselves in 2, 3, 5 years? how do we want our kids to grow up? where do we want them to grow up? so we have lots of decisions to make. like i said, my brain is buzzing.

the fake tree

if i didn't have to use the computer in the office to do internety stuff i would post a picture of my new fake tree. that's right. i did it. i caved and bought a fake tree. this is a big step in my life. huge. so it is 7 1/2 feet tall and 58" wide. it is nice. but i can't figure out how to get the top on without it being so wobbly. real ones are just easier. bring it in. wait a few hours while it fluffs itself out, then decorate. then throw it out on january 1st. fake trees involves setting up, making the top not wobbly, spreading all the freaking 1288 tips out so that it looks real and then storing all year long. man oh man. i am already not looking forward to stuffing in that box. on the other hand, there will be no messy pine needles to clean up and we won't have to worry about watering when we are in morden for two weeks. i will miss our annual christmas tree light up...that is when we are done with out tree and it is dried out, we have usually lit it up in our backyard to see how fast it burns. so fun. *sigh* so this weekend i am hosting 4 groups. i am waiting for group #1 to show up. they said 5ish...so that could mean anytime. should be a busy weekend. oh, and everyone be proud of me...yesterday i bought TWO christmas presents. That's right...TWO and it isn't even december yet and they weren't even for me. that is a first. :)

friday finally

these next few weeks are going to be so long. camp has slowed down so much! i can't believe it! not only that, but for the next week we don't really have a "boss" to work with so it's kinda been pokey around here. today all i did was clean the pool, move some chairs, check some accomodations and then spent the rest of the afternoon helped a co worker move to a different house here on site. warren is coaching hockey tonight. they have a game in gimli so nathan and i are going to heckle the players. we sit in the stands and cheer for warren when he walks across the ice. then nathan looks at the program so he can tell what the players names are and then he cheers for them by name as if he has known them his whole life. it's funny and only mildly embarrassing. the only downfall to going to the games is that hot chocolate is like 2 bucks for a small little cup!! unbelievable! what is the world coming to. i might smuggle my own in tonight. warren is on call this weekend. i have no idea WHAT i am going to do. sit around and watch tv i guess...although we talked about hooking a snowboard up to the back of warren's quad and going snowboarding around. there are no hills here. none. morden seems like a rolling land of mountains compared to out here. hee hee. once the lake is frozen there will be more space for quadding and stuff...anyways...that was today. it snowed gently all day today. it was pretty. i am thinking about acutally buying a FAKE christmas tree. since we are going to morden for 2 weeks i won't be able to keep a real one alive. so this is a big thing for me. i am pretty anti fake tree. but i am hoping that costco has some good deals. i am ready to start decorating my little house. :)

getting chilly

i have decided that if you want to grow your hair out you should work a winter at camp. every day i put a touque on my head. it is worthless to even do a cute little hairdo because after half an hour in a hat your hair is flat and ugly looking and so you may as well just wear it all day long, inside and outside. So i run around all day dressed in winter outdoor stuff, looking and feeling like a marshmallow...only to go home to shower, change, do my hair and then sit around watching tv till the next day when i do it all over again. what is the point? no wonder people start looking "campy" after a while. i am starting to miss being pretty. and now since warren is on call for the next 2 weekends in a row it means we won't really be able to leave this place. for two straight weeks! i am going stir crazy. it's been years since i have been able to get addicted to tv shows. now i find myself living vicariously through my tv characters. yesterday House did something funny and i talked to the tv...i shook my head and said "house, what are you doing?" then i shook my head and thought, Amy, what are you doing talking to the tv?????

today it is snowing gently outside. it is very pretty. but the air is chilly outside. i'm working on Ultimate Day stuff today which is going good. it's in two weeks. speaking of which...i better get back to work. ;)